I am a straight man. From high school through college and after, I loved me some women. Then I met my present girl 10 years ago. I fell head over heels for her. I still love her. But, little by little, she has become boring to me. Our sex life has cooled. Days run together with mundane activities like watching TV, going to the store, and hanging out with our kids.
We own a house, weÕre financial stable, we look very traditional. But I am far from conservative. I love nightlife, crazy friends, and good drink. She was aware of this when we met because we ran in the same circles. My boredom is compounded by a craving for sex with other women. It doesnÕt matter who Ñ the girl at the coffee shop, the checker at Whole Foods, every chick at the gym Ñ IÕm up to my eyeballs in covet.
I want out. I want to be a father to my kids and take care of my wife financially. But I want out. I am a few years from 40. What is the best course of action?
Too Young To Flail
One day, IÕm gonna throw my hands in the air and declare that, from that blessed day forward, I shall no longer tinker with the machinery of monogamy. That day hasnÕt arrived, as I still have mortgage payments to make and opposite marriages to save Ñ so hereÕs a little tinkle for you:
You say you want out, TYTF, but are you sure about that? In her book I DonÕt: A Contrarian History of Marriage, Susan Squire asks: ÒWhy does society consider it more moral for you to break up a marriage, go through a divorce, disrupt your childrenÕs lives maybe forever, just to be able to fuck someone with whom the fucking is going to get just as boring as it was with the first person before long?Ó (Emphasis added.)
Writing about Representative Christopher ÒCraigslist CongressmanÓ Lee last week on Balloon Juice Ñ a blog I read daily Ñ BJ contributor ÒMastermixÓ said: ÒIf we want to do something about the high divorce rate, we might want to get real [about] the role of a discreet, mutually-agreed-upon affair as a safety valve.Ó
In other words, TYTF, destroy the only home your kids have known and put yourself and the wife through the hell of divorce, and hereÕs what happens next: You dog around for a few years and before long you shack up with a new woman Ñ a woman who might want or already has a kid or two of her own Ñ and a few years after that, youÕre trapped in another monogamous relationship that bores you, and a few years after that, youÕre writing to ask if you should put your second wife and your new kids through the pain of a divorce all so you can make an embarrassing pass at a barista who has zero interest in fucking you.
Instead of putting your current family Ñ and your hypothetical second family and that poor barista Ñ through that, TYTF, why not risk leveling with the wife youÕve got now? Your marriage is already on the ropes, TYTF, so you donÕt have a lot to lose. Ask to have a Òsafety valveÓ installed on your marriage in the form of permission to have a discreet, mutually-agreed-upon affair, should the right opportunity/barista present itself/herself. It may not be a pleasant thing for your wife to hear, but ÒIÕm leaving you to go fuck a barista to be named laterÓ wonÕt be music to her ears, either.
She may surprise you, TYTF. ItÕs entirely possible Ñ I hope youÕre sitting down for this Ñ that you bore her just as much as she bores you. If sheÕs itching for a few adventures of her own, social and sexual, then spend whatever money you were planning to spend on lawyers and counseling for your kids on flying grandparents in to look after the kids while you two head out for a weekend away.
But if all she wants is to stay at home in front of the TV with the kids, tell her that to preserve your sanity and, paradoxically, your marriage, youÕre going to go out and have some adventures on your own.
If she leaves you over it, TYTF, then you got what you wanted: out.
IÕm a 31-year-old lesbian. My girlfriend is in her 30s, but save for a few one-night stands, she has never been with a woman before. IÕve never had better sex than the sex IÕm having with her. When I try to talk to her about this, she gets anxious and makes self-deprecatory comments. I want to be with her for the long haul Ñ our dreams fit together Ñ I just need to figure out how to communicate with her about how great our sex is. Got any advice?
Yeah, CB, IÕve got some advice for you: Shut the fuck up.
I had this awesome new boyfriend once, and the sex was so freaking great that I felt compelled to communicate with him about how great it was. ÒThis is so great,Ó I would tell him. ÒLetÕs try to figure out where all this greatness is coming from!Ó But he didnÕt enjoy talking about sex Ñ particularly while we were having sex Ñ and he got so annoyed with my attempts to figure out where all this greatness was coming from that he eventually asked/advised/ordered me to shut the fuck up.
Keep fucking the girlfriendÕs fucking brains right fucking out, CB, but shut the fuck up. Odds are that sheÕll learn to relax and open up about sex, like my boyfriend did. But in the meantime, CB, try to resist the urge to lesbian this thing into the ground by communicating it to death.
For several months now, IÕve had a growing attraction to one of my good male friends. I am an open bisexual male, and my friend is Òstraight.Ó WeÕve had relations Ñ me blowing him, him jerking me Ñ but heÕs adamant that he is not attracted to males at all. He nevertheless sleeps with me in my bed when he spends the night.
The plot thickens: A couple days ago, my ÒstraightÓ crush ordered an eight-inch dildo, molded from a real dick, complete with balls! He got it to use on himself! He says because thereÕs not going to be another male present when he uses it, and thus no romance, the act will be Òstraight.Ó I define being sexual as enjoying not only the sexual interactions possible between preferred genders, but also the emotional satisfaction, or romance. Does he have a point?
Absolutely Hate Acronyms
WasnÕt there Òanother male presentÓ when you were giving him blowjobs, AHA, and he was jerking you?
Maybe if your ÒstraightÓ friend wasnÕt accepting blowjobs from another man and swore on a stack of vintage Playboys that he would be fantasizing about a lady-parts-having woman-person pegging him when he jams that dildo up his ass, then maybe Ñ maybe Ñ he could be believed when he claims to be a straight dude into anal penetration. But a guy who fails to mention a burning desire for pussy to shore up his straight cred Ñ particularly in conversation with a dude who blows him Ñ and instead falls back on a lame Òno homoÓ rationalization (ÒHey, itÕs not like the dildo brought me flowers or anything gay like that!Ó) is a lot of things, but straight ainÕt one of Õem.
If your straight friend manages to fuck some sense into himself on that dildo, AHA, you might want to take a turn on it yourself.
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